I know this sounds odd, but I just wrote someone who had something stolen by her cousin that the thieving cousin would "get what he so richly deserved". Well, that made me think, yet again, that maybe my disease is payback for something I "so richly deserved". I haven't been evil, on the contrary, pretty darn good of a person. It just occassionally hits me that I did something along the way (or even in a past life, sounds odder yet) that gave me this disease because I deserved it. Now I have told many a person that they did NOTHING to deserve this disease and I believe that fervently. But when I say or write to someone that a nasty or evil person will "get what they deserve" it does always stop me in my tracks that I too am getting what I deserve. I know this sounds childish and I do know better but... Thoughts on my childish little statement? Am i the only one who stops and thinks "Did I do something that gave me a disease that I so richly deserved to suffer with?" And by the way, I am not religious at all. So that doesn't play into it either.